Saturday, August 22, 2009

I'm needing Him today...

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Do you ever just get sick of being hurt time and time again? That's where I am today. I am fighting another battle from within and I really just need the Lord's strength to help me up. My struggles have absolutely nothing to do with stamping but this is the best place for me to vent and share my frustrations. To be honest, I'm tired of it and I don't feel like trying anymore. I'm sick of pleasing others. I'm sick of allowing myself to get hurt and upset. I have had a hard week. Ok, really it's all been happening the past few days but it feels like an eternity. I'm to the point where I am making myself sick, literally. I don't sleep and I stress myself out. I won't be able to hold myself up much longer because I have been shoving my feelings in for so long. I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings so I allow my own to be hurt. Oh how tiresome that can get.

Somehow, the Lord has provided for me. He knows what I need and He is so good. He has blessed me with a supportive husband. He sent me my dearest friend on the day I needed her the most. He has given me the gift of joy through one sweet little boy when I was not able to feel it myself. He even went so far as to have my father call me just to see how my day went even though He knows my father HATES the phone! It's the little things like those that help me to see how big our God really is and how much He really does love us. He comforts us when we need it, He gives us strength when we feel we can't give it much more, and He loves us unconditionally. He truly is a Holy God.

Now that I have poured out my heart. I want to share my project. I created this for Patter Cross's His Holy Name challenge. Now for those of you who have heard of this project you know that I am WAY behind! :) I don't care though because I really want to do it still. The first name is Holy. As I get ready to create these pages I leaf through the verses and write down the ones that mean the most to me and really speak to me. I then spend the entire week reading those verses, praying about them, and memorizing them. Obviously there are more than one! :)

I purchased the 7 Gypsies photo holder and have decided to create my layouts on the cards that fit the holder. The cards are approximately 5x7 which is about perfect for what I want to fit on them! I cover the cards in the patterned paper of my choice and print the verses in a coordinating color. For this layout I choose to use Cosmo Cricket's Everafter paper and stamped images from the Unity August KOTM. I added the embellishments and sponged the edges for a distressed look.

Here is what it looks like on the holder. We have decided to keep it in the living room so that our company can enjoy it as well. I can't even begin to express how excited I am about this project! It has already helped me in more ways than I can even imagine!


8 comments:

Amy said...

Steph, here's a hug coming out to you! Thanks for sharing your pain with us, I'm glad you feel safe doing so. I sort of did the same thing on my blog today too. Sounds like God knows exactly what to do to bring you back around. He is ever faithful. Hope this afternoon got a bit better for you. Hugs!

scrappingnana said...

Sorry things have been rough for you lately, but like you said, God knows what we need and provides for us. I pray he continues to bless you and strengthen you. It is good to share things and not hold them in. I am kind of that way also and know how you feel. God Bless.
JoAnn

TheMorrillBunch said...

Hugs from Utah!! Hang in there my blogosphere friend.

Shelli Deckard Prescott, Arizona said...

I have been a youth pastors wife and I have felt unbearable pain. Keep focussed on Him and you will get through. He's got you in the palm of His hand~~~

Michelle said...

I am so sorry to hear about your rough patch. I'm praying for Our Father to hold you close and help you through. I'm praying He helps you see that it is 'just a patch'. Even when it feels as if it goes on and on, it's just a blip. Stay close to Him and lean on those He sends to comfort you. Phil 4:13 has gotten me through many of life's blips. {{HUGS}}

leanne said...

Steph, this is so pretty! I found my scrapbook for these today and I think I got 5 done. You motivated me to get started again:) I love the paper you used and the verses! I'm thankful that you're my friend!

Maria Gurnsey said...

Sounds like you need ANOTHER hug!!! It was so nice to get to meet you and Leanne, we definately need to get together for a stamping weekend :)

Jekka said...

Steph,
I am a little behind in my blog reading. I hope that things are better for you now. Continue to bask in His love and blessings.
I love this project and would like to know more. Can you email a link or email me with the details. I realize it's past the time but I to would like to participate. My email is jekkaj1@hotmail.com